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Now that I have connected to nature on a deeper and more meaningful level, this energy feeds the rose bush's energy to assist in its growth and happiness. It grows into a tree that gives shade in the heat, more blooms in the spring, and more oxygen every day to support the lives of other organisms. Our connection is to my benefit as well by heightening my connection to trees, plants, and wildlife. I feel more need to care for nature and myself along with learning how to increase my power to connect to everything around me.

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Something that the darkness has taught me is that it can be created by the mixing of primary colors red, blue, and yellow. Colors can make the darkness. And when darkness fades, the colors come back. Our darkness can harness our colors of self to either protect them, hide them for an unknown reason, or to destroy them so it can swallow them whole. It can be our bringer of joy or our last breath. When it comes to the life and death of a flower, it wilts into darkness but then it comes back to life from the darkness. Much like you and I can do. The darkness can fill us with mental and emotional disease but when we come out of the darkness, it keeps our memories so we don't go back. It allows us to bloom into color but is always there to be our reminder of how it can come for us again. It's the bringer of death and the giver of life. 

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So be a glorious rose tree. Stand tall. Know you're beautiful. Give to others. Protect yourself with your thorns but if the darkness slithers through your thorns to crawl up your stalk and crush your bloom, you will come back to life. Your bloom, your thorns, and your strength. You may be fractured, but you will never be broken.

The Fire's Match Is To My Literature's Pen

When one thinks of a book, they typically think pen, paper, computer, words, stories. For some it may be that simple. For someone who is a super casual writer may write a letter to their parents to let them know they are living as if walking through a mind fucking horror movie while not knowing what their next moment will bring whether it be doing laundry or tripping up the stairs because they drank too much NyQuil. Or they write in their journal on how they really need to get their anger torched into ash before they rip off their own face just to feed it to the gerbils they got for their birthday from their partner. Or they write a thesis on how deep they can lie about how much they loved their senior year of high school because if they aren't convincing, they won't graduate. Some read to learn a career, how to cook a ton of Italian recipes, clean up a murder scene in a dirt covered basement, or...to graduate high school.

 

In my world, it's not this simple. Much like a witches brew or spell, there are an innumerable amount of ingredients that can be and are used to create a piece of written art. Art needs substance, flavor, a mixture of sweet and sour, love and hate, sane and insane. You also can't use the exact same ingredients for each creation because the intent is different with each one. I like to think of them as legal psychedelics or non-medicated escapes from reality. The good part is that I'm fully filled with all of these aspects needed to create a plethora of content. The bad part is, is that I can display or experience almost all these aspects at the same time so my thoughts and ideas become entangled much like a spider attempting to weave a fresh web during a tornado. The symmetry and purposeful design becomes distorted and uncontrolled. BUT, what can you do?

 

I present to you the very thing that began my journey to create this website; my never dying love of writing. It is my therapy, my Xanax, my friend, my comfort, my release, my anger, my fantasies, my psychosis. It's the only piece of me that I feel is slightly intelligent and an unapologetic reflection of who I am and how I exist. I also want my books to be as organic as possible so one of the ways I accomplish this is only following the very basic guidelines of the process while not following a lot of others. My books don't look like most, aren't set up like a typical book and all serve a different purpose so I don't think I fit into just one genre. But they all have one thing in common, they are personal and raw. I hope you enjoy reading them as much as I did inking them.

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Cursophrenia

Cursophrenia: spiritual form of schizophrenia; not genetic; gone generation after generation of not being diagnosed, until now. 

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Counselor after psychotherapist had tried helping Despi with her psychosis but consistently failed while at times, making her worse. When it comes to mystery, no thought or pondering is incorrect. You just may be surprised by what you find if you think outside of your reality.

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Fearbasing

Take it from an emotion addict, fearbasing will destroy your life, your relationships, and quite possibly your childrens' future. The cure? Your will to survive and accept reality.

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Once fear gets inside your internal energy, it knows everything about you which makes it difficult to get rid of. It eats your spirit. It suffocates your life force. It steals your time. Don't be your fear as Rya did. She was so deep, she was gone before she even realized it. Don't be Rya.

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Poetry & The Mimosa Tree

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